Why do we make resolutions? Why do we aim to achieve certain
things, when most of our planning is pulled successfully down by the lethargy
of spirit and the mundaneness of life? Ennui, we call it. It’s a
disappointment, and a big one at that, the day you realize how remiss you have
been in carrying out your duty to yourself. How careless have you been towards
your sense of self-respect. Because, let me tell you, the realization of this
lack of concern towards your aims and ambitions is pitiful, loathsome and makes
you sick to your guts. One may read, one may do his daily chores well enough
and may not be negligent of them. But is that all you aim for? What about the
daily jog which you promised yourself? What about the regular writing which was
to form a part of your every day? What about music? What about giving something
back to the society? A family member or a sympathizer may say You Cannot
Achieve Everything, You Know. But what of the importance of these things to
your sense of confidence? What about the day when you realize your negligence
has been profound enough to make you loathe yourself?
What’s the way out? Is it to aim for a lower rung of ladder?
Or to give everything to the achievement of your purpose, regardless of
familial ties and relationships? You only have so much time in your day, you
know. It’s difficult to compromise one for the other. But one thing I know –
that when you start doing the things that you love day in and out, you give off
a natural glow, a glow that emanates from your personality and makes you very
attractive to people who share your frequencies. When you start doing the
things you love, you will feel confident of yourself, and your confidence will
reflect in the way you walk, the way you lift your eyes, the way you intone
your speech, it almost gives off this odour which makes you stand out. Why do
people who run or hit the gym daily, or those who read a lot of books, or those
who practice music dedicatedly every day, have a sense of self-assurance
written across their visages? In a way, it is your inner happiness that sprouts
not from riches or fame or power, but from a sense of achievement, a feeling
that you are ‘good enough for anything’. And I feel it’s worth pursuing that
inner happiness. It keeps you happy, helps you make people around you happy by
spreading optimism, and helps you overcome dark times in life. Ofcourse, we
should not stop aiming for more, but if you are able to achieve this basic
happiness, things get better.